The first book I ever had signed by an author was Ellen
Kushner’s Swordspoint which I bought
when it debuted in 1987, but didn’t get signed until June 2007. I was still
trying to get The Crown Conspiracy,
published and I was curious about the whole book signing tradition. What happened if I did get published and
someone asked me to sign a book? How do you do that? What page do you sign on?
Do you use pen, pencil, or marker? What color? Does it matter what color? Do you
just sign your name?
Ellen Kushner wrote on a blank page before the first title
page (there are usually two) and said:
For Michael—best of luck with your own work—you’re
always welcome in Riverside!
Then there was this scribble that looked a bit like an EKG
printout with three peaks and three valleys followed by the neatly written
though enigmatic:
6.07 ALA. I figured out that first part was a
nifty way of recording the date, the ALA was likely because she was appearing
at the
American Library Association’s Annual
Conference, however it could have had something to do with the American
Literature Association, or the American Legal Administrators, or a Roman
Republic-Era infantry formation, or Ms. Kushner might have been secretly
informing me that she was
a female demon from Serbian and Bulgarian mythology. I didn’t look at
the signature until I got home so I never found out which she meant, but I like
to think it was the last one.
I studied this singular example I had of an author’s book
signing. The handwriting was sloppy, hurried—part cursive, part printing, and
not at all what I expected. I imagined authors were like John Hancock with
perfect flowing serifs and looping curls. After all they were writers. I forgot
that few authors wrote with pens anymore, much less quills. This was good news
because I gave up cursive decades ago. A signature, however, is different.
When I was in seventh grade I scrawled my name with cramped,
tight letters as legibly as possible at the top of every assignment. One day I
noticed the signature of a fellow student. He was left-handed and an absolute
ass, but had a beautiful signature—stunning really, with all the embellishment
of a nineteenth century poet. I wanted a signature like that—a little work of
art I could rip off with a flourish. After all I might be famous one day and
people might ask for my autograph, and did I really want to put my tongue to
the left side of my mouth and laboriously force out such a constipated series
of letters as I had been thus far?
I soon became obsessed with signatures. I had a big art pad
and I began asking absolutely everyone I knew to sign it. No one knew why, and
I never told them. I was twelve, and when you’re twelve you don’t need reasons
to do things that, as an adult, would result in a call to the police. Can I have your car keys? What’s your
pin-number? Here sign this blank page. In a year the paper was filled with
the names of relative (some that died soon after leaving me with a strange
piece of them,) friends (some that in the same span of time stopped being
friends,) teachers, even strangers. I studied the assortment. Some were
perfect. My mother and oldest sister for example wrote their names using the
same font as was on the long alphabet strip that ran along the top of the
classroom blackboard—creepy in their exacting precision. Older men wrote in
stiff firm strokes that you could feel on the back of the page. I liked the
masculine look of those, but they were too simple. The ones I was drawn to were
the flamboyant scrawls that didn’t understand the bounds of space or common
decency. Signatures that screamed and danced. Capital letters exploded as if
the writer was having an epileptic fit. Most of them were hard to read, but
created an image that—while impossible to be read—suggested the name in a
stylishly attractive design. Later I would come to see this as a logo of sorts.
I could never create a beautiful and legible signature, so I settled for a
design. I forced it at first, then over the years settled into something that
felt natural, easy, and even a bit luxurious. I loved the sound of a good
signature: scribble—pause—scribble, scribble—pause, sort of like a dance step. Soon
it settled into muscle reflex and became permanent. I don’t even know how I do it any more, it just happens.
Why the post on signatures? No I’m not drunk, it’s because
I’ve had a lot of time to ponder mine recently.
First Orbit wanted to give out some promotional items to
herald the upcoming release of The Crown
Tower, coming out the beginning of August, and asked me to sign several
hundred bookmarks. I also promised my kickstarter investors signed
bookmarks—nearly a thousand of those. Then came the Hollow World posters—another thousand signatures. Finally (not
really finally as I still have a number of bookmarks I’m working on,) the Unfettered box arrived.
Shawn Speakman offered a limited edition hard cover version
of
his anthology that would be signed by all the authors—five hundred copies. I
found the box filled with the unbound signature pages waiting on my stoop.
Thankfully it wasn’t raining or the whole stack might have been ruined. That
would have been bad since the box had already traveled to England and back.
Opening the box I found a stack of pages just about five
inches tall. The identical pages were printed with names and signature lines. Only
four of the other 21 authors had signed these included: Peter Brett, Naomi
Novik, Robert Redick and Mark Lawrence. Given these and other names on the page
I was a little nervous. Sure I’d worked on my signature for forty years, but I
still felt like that kid in seventh grade looking over at the left-handed ass
and his nineteenth century ballpoint calligraphy.
I’d just bought a pen. Got it on Amazon. Cost $30. I
justified the purchase by telling myself I deserved a decent pen because I was
an author now, damnit! I felt guilty as soon as I pressed the one-click buy
button. You have to understand my mother was a teenager during the Depression,
and I grew up on my late father’s veteran’s benefits in a house too poor to
afford real cheese. My mother told me cheese-food was just cheaper cheese. I
didn’t taste the real thing until I was twenty-two. She lied. First Santa, then
the thing about ex-lax being candy just for me, then the cheese. I keep
expecting to discover that my little Catholic mother, at ninety-two, has been
dealing crystal meth ever since prohibition ended.
Sitting at my desk with my brand new parker ballpoint—yeah a
$30 ballpoint! (do you know you can
get 60 Bics for $6.43?)—I prepared to start signing. I looked over the other
signatures. Peter Brett’s looked like a stamp. Each one was a perfectly
replicated, incomprehensible design—a P and a scribble with a line through it
that could have been PAM. Mark Lawrence was far simpler and interesting
in how it stayed low on the line like it was melting. Both were done in black
ballpoint. Robert Redick’s was in blue felt tip. Big bold Rs and generally
readable. The clearest was Naomi Novik’s. Every letter was clear. Hers stood
out for more than just readability—she wrote in purple ink.
I took a breath and began signing my own craptastic
autograph. I was at a book signing once and a reader had two copies of Crown Conspiracy they wanted me to sign.
I ripped off my signature flourish that I’d spent ages perfecting for just such
a moment. She looked at it, and handing me the second book asked, “Can you sign
your name legibly this time?”
I had to face facts, after years of working on it, my
signature is awful. I console myself by realizing that it might be terrible,
but extremely hard to duplicate, and when it comes to signatures, that’s
important too.
The problem was I scrawl the M in my name in an exaggerated
sideways Zorro slash which I think looks cool, or at least it did to my twelve-year-old
self, and the descenders drops way down below the line. This isn’t normally an
issue, but there are 22 other authors sharing the page. My cool slash was going
to skewer Eldon Thompson, who had yet to sign below me. Likewise my rocking 6.5
seismograph wave—that I like to call the letter M—threatened to extend into
Shawn Speakman’s territory above. I struggled then to rein in my flamboyance as
best I could.
A funny thing happens when you sit and sign your name over
and over for hours—you’re mind starts thinking about weird stuff. It’s sort of
like driving when you’re really tired. You might think, Wow, what if I drift out of my lane into oncoming traffic? Then you
think. Why did I just think that? Am I
drifting? Panic hits. You jerk the wheel slightly only to realize you’re
fine. Same thing with signing your name. Wow,
what if I was supposed to sign on the line under my name instead of above it? I
panicked. I was some fifty pages in and I realized I never checked which side I
should sign on. A quick glance showed I was fine and woke me up. What if I accidently sign on the wrong line?
Stop it you’re being ridiculous now.
As I waded into the pile I was freaked when I noticed Naomi
Novik changed her pen color from lavender to hot pink. She must have run out of
ink in her pen. This got me thinking how many signatures were in a new
ballpoint pen. I started hearing the Tootise Pop owl in my head, “How many
licks does it take to get to the center of a Tootise Pop? Ah one, ah two…” I
didn’t have a refill, and I only had the one $30 pen! What would I do if I ran
out of ink? Fifty pages later Naomi switched back to lavender. WTF? Is she just
messing with me now? Fifty pages later she was back to pink and then lavender
again and on and on. Maybe she was switching pens planning on auctioning them
off at some later date as collectables, or she had a pack of really cheap pens that kept running dry
(a pack of 60 Bics maybe). Thank God for my I-could-have-bought-my-wife-a-nice-lunch-but-instead-I-bought-a-stupid
pen.
A page felt thicker than the others when I flipped it to the
discard pile. I investigated and noticed two pages stuck together. Wow, what if I miss a page? How much would that suck? This really
bothered me until I realized that in an anthology with Patrick Rothfuss,
Brandon Sanderson, and Terry Brooks, no one who bought this was thinking,
“Sweet! I’m finally going to get Michael J. Sullivan’s autograph!”
After a couple hundred pages I noticed my signature was
evolving still. I just wasn’t as consistent as Peter Brett—that guy’s a
machine. I started imagining him with this giant steampunk contraption that
allowed him to sign a hundred pages at once, each one identical. Mine were all
over the place. I signed Michael Sullivan
even though the print below states Michael
J. Sullivan. I never sign the J,
because it looks awful and feels awkward. But after a few hundred pages I
noticed a J appearing and for about
fifty pages I was signing M. J. Sullivan—or
the suggestion thereof.
This got me thinking of how Shakespeare spelled his name
differently on all six of his known signatures. Shackper, Shakspear, Shakspea,
Shackspere, Shakespear, and Shakspere. None of which are what we today consider
the correct spelling. Furthermore, he wrote like he was illiterate or drunk. I’m
guessing drunk.
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| Shakespeare Signatures |
By the time I got through the first four hundred pages, my
back was starting to hurt, my wrist was chaffing on the edge of the stack, and
my mind was wandering to the opening credits of The Simpsons where Bart is forced to do lines on a blackboard. For
the younger crowd, doing lines on a blackboard is not a reference to cocaine
and a powered off iPad. Schools were not that progressive.
I flipped another page and found a hair. I have a shedding
dog and a wife and daughter with long hair so we have lots of hair in my house.
This one was different. It was curly. Long, auburn, and curling in the exact
shape of a stretched out slinky. I know Peter Brett and quickly eliminated him
from the list. I’ve seen pictures of Lawrence, and didn’t think Redick was a
likely candidate. I did a quick Google image search on Naomi Novik. Ahah!
Elementary, my dear $30 pen, elementary. So now I have Naomi’s DNA. Maybe Ellen
Kushner’s ALA demon friends can show me how to Wicca some of her talent.
Wow, what if I leave
some of my own hair in between the pages? What if Eldon Thomspon finds it and
is still pissed because I intruded on his signature space? You don’t want
to screw around with fantasy authors. Guys like Tom Clancy who write thrillers know
people in the government and military. Fantasy authors know people who can brew
polyjuice potions.
Around four hundred and fifty pages in I realized that doing
this sober was dumb. On the four hundred and seventy-eighth page I made a
mistake in my signature, then thought, can
I make a mistake in my signature?
As I neared the bottom of the stack I was getting punchy and
I really began to worry about making a mistake. I was so close, what if I
screwed up at the very end? What if in my hurry to be done with it I signed on
the wrong line? It was at that moment I turned the page and saw something
unusual. After nearly five hundred pages you notice any difference. I even saw
where Naomi Novik dropped her pen leaving two dots she can’t even deny it—the
dots are hot pink. But what I saw on that next page was way beyond the switching
pen colors, dots, or hair.
On the upper right was neatly printed a little note—an
apology to Jennifer Bosworth. It was from Peter Brett who accidentally started
his signature on her line. Like seeing a flipped car in the medium with one
tire still spinning, I slowed down after that and very carefully finished the
last few pages. Unless I missed a page, I got through it safely if not as
perfectly as others, and I feel like I should get an “I survived signing Unfettered” T-shirt.
To reward myself, afterward I took a stack of bookmarks to
the pub and continued to sign my name, but this time with a pint. If it was
good enough for Shakespeare…Sullian, Sulivan, Sillivan, Sullvain, Sullivane. No
I’m just joking—there’s no way you can read the letters in my signature.
Good luck to whoever gets the box next, I at least put the
pages in waterproof envelopes, but I can’t guarantee there’s no hair. The short
white ones are from my dog.
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